I cried rainbow coloured tears... tears of love, and happiness, and completeness. Tears of joy, sadness, loss, tears for the years of 'maybe' that had laid heavy inside. Tears of knowing we had come to the end of tricky conversations. You were the full stop on one page yet the new beginning that would fill the crisp white empty pages of the next chapter.
I cried because I did not know my heart was so very broken. I did not know that the sticky tape had tarnished and the blue tack was failing. I did not see how it was loosely bound together by luck alone. You were my superglue.
I cried because I can see what you will give us. I cried for the happiness I see in my sons eyes as he strokes you and for the years of friendship and adventure to come.
It has been a wonderful journey waiting for your arrival. As a family we shared the same excitement we did when we have our first child, our only child. We planned, and read, and learnt and beamed excited smiles every time a picture of you pinged up on our phones.
I cried because this is right. You fill the gap that has followed us for years, the gap where dreams and hopes have fallen into never to be found again, like the boys missing sock! It is not the family I had assumed would be ours, but family you truly are.
I cried because I am so very thankful. I hope beyond hope your waggy tail and snuffling nose can sense just what you mean to us. You have filled me with hope, you have given my son a new lease of life and bought us the promise of companionship when we know we will be weathering the storms the boys needs bring.
You are more than just squeaky toys, gentle snores and the warmth of soft paws as you sleep on my lap. You are a fixer. A fur brother. You have licked and nuzzled your way into my heart and gently put it back together... and for that Mr Bones, I will be forever grateful.
Thank you. x
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